July 31, 2025, Evo Numy
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I dreamt.
Part I - Cheating Cruise Thalassophobia
I was still with my ex and i was planning a cruise for us. I was making friends with some other guy behind his back. I was planning to eventually leave my ex and be with this other guy. The other guy and I were emailing, we sent photos of our friends and family to each other. My ex saw these emails and I started to panic. He was not worried, it was just two friends emailing harmless pictures. He saw I emailed pictures of us to the other guy. I was overcome with knee buckling guilt.
My ex, the other guy, Hermione from Harry Potter and I were waiting by the dock for our cruise ship. We saw a ship departing, it was ours. We ran down the dock after it. Hermione cast a spell that made an ice bridge from the dock to the ship. Hermione, the other guy and I ran across the bridge and boarded the ship. I looked back to see my ex still standing at the dock. I asked him why he wasn’t coming. He said that he didn’t like cruises and he’s afraid of the ocean. He wished the three of us a good time.
A few days into the cruise, the ship split in half. I rushed over to a lifeboat and was able to get in. I watched the massive ship with hundreds of other passengers be swallowed up by the black waters and fade into the depths of the ocean.
I was overcome with thalassophobia. We were stranded in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. How many hundreds of thousands of meters were below me? I leaned over the side of the lifeboat. I could only see a few meters below me, past that, was only the dark abyss. I thought about all the sea creatures below me, known and unknown. What sort of horrors were hidden below my boat?
Part II - Dream Walker
I was sleeping in my childhood home. I woke up and got out of bed, I turned around and saw that I was still in bed sleeping. My sleeping self started to stir so I calmed her down. I got up and went outside.
It was a crisp, frosty fall morning. My parent’s backyard was covered by long grasses with frozen dew droplets that sparkled in the morning light. Tendrils of fog wove between tree trunks. The sky was an overcast grey/pale lilac color. Crows and little songbirds were heralding the morning. It was such a beautiful sight. I wanted to preserve this moment and live in it forever.
I saw my neighbors waking up and coming outside. I was sad because I wanted to just sit in my yard unseen and undisturbed. After a few moments I realized that it doesn’t matter if they see me or not. Their opinions of me do not matter plus, I was being controlled by the sleeping version of myself. This gave me more confidence to be myself. I sat in the middle of the yard and enjoyed the beautiful morning.
I awoke.