I Set A Feast Set Before Wolves. Lambs, be Steadfast and Strong. Dearest God in the heavens, hear Your servant.
You have torn my mind asunder. You have brought me to my knees with what You are capable of. There are no words to express the love, sorrow, compassion that I can feel through You.
My tiny human mind cannot comprehend the depth and intensity of Your love. I can’t even begin to contain these emotions.
How deep and endless Your forgiveness is. You extend this to those who are scum of the Earth. Those who deserve a life filled with endless suffering.
You’ve even given degenerates like me a second chance. Oh, all the sins I’ve committed. All the sins you already know I’ll commit. You already know all the things with me that will come to pass. From right now to 144,777,054,665,926,735,736,734,889,990,111 years from now. They all exist in the same moment for you and that alone is such a powerful thing.
You have shown me Your healing power, Your depth of forgiveness, love for others, patience, kindness, compassion, empathy, sorrow, loneliness, hope, joy, empowerment.
I want to shout words of worship to You from the rooftops. I want to write songs to You. Write poetry. Make stories. Create art (even though I’m no good at it).
Fill me with your Holy Spirit. I, the vessel.
Help me share these wonderful feelings You have shared with me. You have given me a glimpse of what good things are possible with Your light. I wish to share it; to bring it to the ones who want to know.
Not everyone will listen, and they don’t have to. Ridicule will come upon me, and that’s ok. Friends, family, and acquaintances will avoid me and shun me, I expect it.
Help me find those who have had enough of this World and want to retreat into You. Let me set their hearts ablaze so they may start their search. Just as You have done to me, a sinful creature of dust. Dust formed to clay and then clay into flesh and then flesh into human and then human into Your-